My Buffy Soundtrack

Anyone who knows me is aware of my Buffy obsession. It started when I was thirteen and has adapted throughout the years as I grew. Right at the beginning I was insane. Like borderline worshipping Buffy. It was quite worrying at times. 

It started with the hair.... I needed her hair cuts. I attempted a fringe as Season One was airing, then cut everything off when Season Two started. I tried bleaching my hair, tried layers and feathering (which DID NOT look good as my hair was - and still is - painfully thick) but at the time, I didn't care. I wanted to be Buffy. 

During that obsession I also fixated on her clothes. Mainly the first three seasons, but this obsession was just as bad as the first one. I made an actual list of every single outfit she wore. Including the hair accessories and jewelry. I think I still have these notes, somewhere around. 

After those two obsessions faded I started on the house. I wanted Buffy's hair, then her clothes, then her bedroom. I tried buying identical home-ware just so I would match............ I told you it was bad. 

Then I started on the soundtrack. I needed every single song ever used on that show. I bought random albums just for single tracks, I downloaded torrent after torrent of files about Buffy to locate all the hidden gems I could. I didn't know what the hell I was doing, but I was a girl on a mission. If only I had known how easy it was to convert YouTube audio to MP3, I wouldn't have had to spend YEARS looking. Grumble.

THANKFULLY, the crazy obsession faded and I grew to appreciate everything about the show. But I will admit, the soundtrack has remained my favourite of the obsessions. I have all the tracks on my iPod and I play them when it's sunny and I'm feeling happy. (I also have a depressing playlist I put on when I'm blue) but mostly when I'm in a good mood I pop the music on. 

Anyway.... yesterday I saw a post on Tumblr where someone listed their favourite 'Buffy Music Moments' and I liked the idea so much I decided to put a list together myself. This is a mish-mash of my favourite songs, usually just because of the song in general but sometimes because of the scene that goes along with it.

Season One

Ballad for Dead Friends, Dashboard Prophets - The Harvest

This song is on both versions of the album 'Radio Sunnydale'.

Stoner Love, Superfine - Teachers Pet
I tracked this one down online.

Jobs Eye, Far - The Pack

This song is on the album 'Tin Cans with Strings For You'.

I’ll Remember You, Sophie Zelmani - Angel
I tracked this one down online.

Inconsolable, Jonatha Brooke - Prophecy Girl
This song is on the album 'Plumb'.

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Season Two

It Doesn’t Matter, Alison Krauss - When She was Bad
This song is on 'The Buffy Album'.

Sugar Water, Cibo Matto - When She was Bad
This song is on the album Viva! La Woman and also the UK edition of 'Radio Sunnydale'.

Stupid Thing, Nickel - School Hard

I tracked this one down online.

Fate, Dingoes Ate my Baby - Inca Mummy Girl

This song is on the album 'Thrown to the Wolves' by 'Four Star Mary'. 

She, Louis Says - Reptile Boy
I tracked this one down online.

Transylvanian Concubine, Rasputina - Surprise

This song is on 'The Buffy Album'.

I Only Have Eyes for You, Flamingos - I Only Have Eyes for You

This song is on the album 'Flamingo Serenade'.

Full of Grace, Sarah McLachlan - Becoming Part 2

This song is on the album 'Surfacing'.

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Season Three

Back to Freedom, Bellylove - Anne

I tracked this one down online.

Tales of Brave Ulysees, Cream - Band Candy

This song is on the album 'Disraeli Gears'.

Wild Horses, The Sundays - The Prom

This song is on 'The Buffy Album.'

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Season Four

Lucky, Bif Naked - Harsh Light of Day

This song is on 'The Buffy Album'.

Over Fire, THC - Shy - Wild at Heart

I tracked this one down online.

Danse Macabre, Camille Saint Saens - Hush

This song is on the album 'Carnival of the Animals'.

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Season Five

I Can’t Take My Eyes Off You, Melanie Doane - Family

This song is on the UK edition of 'Radio Sunnydale'.

Key, Devies - Crush

This song is on both versions of the album 'Radio Sunnydale'.

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Season Six

Out of this World, Bush - Dead Things

This song is on the album ' Golden State'.

Prayer of St Francis, Sarah McLachlan - Grave

This song is on the US edition of 'Radio Sunnydale'.

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Season Seven

Blue, Angie Hart, Conversations With Dead People
This song is on both versions of the album 'Radio Sunnydale'.

It’s Only Love, Heather Nova - Touched

This song is on the album 'South'.

My Top 10 Saddest Buffy Episodes

1. The Body
This episode practically paralysed me with grief, not just because it was the death of Joyce, but because it is a fear that pretty much everyone has. The loss of a loved one, in an abrupt and quick way. No chance to say goodbye, no last memories, just loss. Even thinking about it makes my eyes glaze over. I'm a sappy cow thou, so you'll have to forgive me. What makes this episode even harder to watch is when Anya doesn't understand mortality. As a 1000+ year old ex-vengeance demon, you would think she would be used to death, but she was never on the receiving end of the grief. Her speech was gut wrenching. 

"Mom?..... Mom?.... Mommy?"

2. Prophecy Girl
Not many people agree with me on this one, but Prophecy Girl always makes me sad. Can you imagine being told at the young age of 16 that you are going to die, and there is probably nothing you can do about it. I know people get told that every day when battling diseases, but this is obviously completely different. I'm extremely selfish, so the thought of having to die to save the world.... fuck that! 

"Giles, I'm sixteen years old. I don't wanna die."

3. The Gift
Spike crying at the loss of Buffy...... need I say more?

"I made a promise to a lady."

4. The Wish
This episode was harsh because of the nonchalant way Buffy staked Xander. I mean, I know in the episode their friendship didn't exist, but I still remembered the past two and a half seasons, so seeing her just take him out (and stroll straight through Angels ashes) was like a massive gut punch. Also, the neck break at the end was brutal.  

"You trusting fool! How do you know the other world is any better than this?"

5. Passion
Of course Jenny's death was going to be in the list. Not just because she died, but because her death destroyed any hope I had of Angel regaining his soul and joining the gang again. The way Giles found her in his apartment was so cruel, and the way Willow reacted when she was told over the phone nearly killed me. This entire episode was a major bitch-slap to the feels. 

"Sorry Jenny. This is where you get off."

6. Wild at Heart
Alyson Hannigan is an amazing actress when it comes to sad scenes (even in How I Met Your Mother when she had to tell Marshall about his dad) so it was inevitable she would be on the list again. This time it was her break up with Oz that got me snot-sobbing. I don't really get emotional when it comes to relationship break ups, but this one was a stinger. This was one of the first times I've ever felt sorry for a cheater, because technically it wasn't his fault. He is just a were-whore. 

However......... him leaving meant we got Tara, so it ain't all bad. 

"My whole life, I've never loved anything else."

7. Forever
I had to give this episode a little shout out because to me this episode was quite sad. Buffy dropping her grown up facade for a split second when she thinks her mum is at the door. Heart wrenching. Truly heart wrenching.

"I liked the lady! Understand monkey boy? She was decent. She didn't put on airs. She always had a nice cuppa for me."

8. Seeing Red
The whole sixth season finale was painful. When Tara arrived on the show it didn't take long for her to become one of my favourites, so when they killed her off, it was like losing a sister. There were so many shitty characters *cough* Anya *cough* that they could have got rid of, but no, They had to kill of Tara, in the most brutal way possible. Not even by a demon, by some dumb ass shit with a gun. And having her get shot in the back, blood splatting over Willow. I can hear the shot and see the splat over and over in my head. It kinda made me feel like throwing up. 

But, on the plus side, Willows transformation into Darth Willow was amazing. I would even go as far as saying amazeballs. 

"Your shirt...."

9. The Becoming - Part Two
I guess you could count this as both parts, but the whole season two finale was pretty emotional. Buffy having to kill the love of her life, him gaining his soul right at the last minute - which meant Angel was going to hell to suffer torture and damnation. And Buffy skipping town to deal with her grief alone. Very sad. But when Joyce kicked Buffy out the house.... that really hurt. 

"No weapons... no friends... no hope. Take all that away and what's left?"

10. Grave
This episode gets a totally separate mention, for the yellow crayon speech alone. God, I loved Xander. He didn't have the magic or strength to go up against Willow, but he still had the balls. And when I though Giles was actually dying... I sobbed!

"Is this the master plan? You're gonna stop me by telling me you love me?"